So I haven’t been the most avid blogger, and to be honest, no one reads this space anyways. But I just wanted to write this down, in case I get lost and forget.
People always ask me what made me want to change my career. It seemed like everything was going so well for me in nursing. And I never ever seemed to have a good answer. It was always- “nursing was tiring”, “I just lost my spark for nursing”, “it wasn’t the right job for me”. All legitimate answers, but not a GOOD answer. Not to me at least.
And all these months. Ever since I left SGH on the 8th of Febuary 2013, I have been trying to search for a good answer.
Well. today I found it.
I decided to quit nursing because I didn’t want to lose myself, to lose my spark. And even though I loved my patients, loved my old job, loved being important and in charge of all these precious lives, I think somewhere, somehow, deep down I felt myself slipping away slowly.
And I lost myself, I lost my sense of wonder, of naivety. I lost my childhood, my hopes and dreams. I lost my love for life. I lost it all.
Isn’t it sad, to lose your zeal for life, to lose your sense of purpose? I was filled with purpose in nursing, I had a hell lotta things to do. But I didn’t feel fulfilled. Wasn’t fulfilled. I went to sleep, tired but discontented. Discontented with life.
How amazing it is that life took a 360degree turn, and I’m in/ trying to be in the jewellery industry now. That life now is full of pretty things, full of beauty I can endeavour to create, full of precious stones from the greatest Creator of all.
Life is full right now, and I’m so much happier than before. And I’m so glad, after all these trials and years gone by, after all these disappointments and regrets, my Best Friend never gave up on me. Not only did He not give up on me, He found a way to nudge me and guide me, to find myself. To regain my sense of wonder. To believe.